Updated: Nov 24, 2019
So we’re already twelve days into 2019 and I can honestly say that I’m resetting my 2019 again in February. I’ve already picked up on mistakes that I’ve been making that I promised myself that I wouldn’t do this year.
For example, I told myself that wasting my time would no longer be an option. I would no longer be allowing myself to have my time wasted by myself but by also individuals in my life. I wanted to beat the habit of procrastination so that I could beat the habit of wasting my life. Because by wasting your own time, you’re wasting your life. Time is precious and so is life. You only get one shot at this, not another one. So that’s why I find it important to spend time doing important things and not sitting around doing nothing.
I’ve also realised that in terms of my creativity I’ve somewhat stumbled. I’ve been writing professionally since 2015 but started sharing my work on Wattpad in 2013. To put it simply I’ve been writing for an extremely long time now and writing has been my main source of income for over three years now. Your girl is tired. And I honestly feel like I need a long hiatus to just stop for a second. Writing has paid my bills, allowed me to travel, paid for my luxuries and many more things. I need to relax and breathe without having to worry about writing today. Don’t get me wrong I love writing with all my heart and that’s the thing – I love it so much that I don’t want to stop loving it. That’s why having healthy breaks are important because I don’t want to start resenting writing. I’ll never allow that to happen. The only issue is, my readers are counting on me to deliver this anticipated final part of my current series. I want to get it out to them so bad but I don’t want to force myself to deliver work that isn’t to the usual standard that I bring out. I’m just going to take things easy and pray about it. I know I’ll be able to get this finale done and not let my readers down because it’ll be an amazing body of work.
I’ve also got an exam next week that I should be revising for but all I keep thinking about is writing. At the end of the day I’m still a student so education is important. I’m here to get my degree and finally be done with education all together. If you’re wondering what I study at university it’s English Literature with Creative Writing. I’m going to do a blog post all about my degree and the rollercoaster I went through to get to this course.
January was definitely just a test run but February we go again!
– Jen xo